Amidst the cold dark nightfall in contemplating
Your mind starts to jumbling Your faith starts to trembling Your inner soul becomes restrained but it keep screaming. You keep seeking. You keep observing Although it just left you wondering Imprisoning you into a trivial well-being - 2 February 2020 -------------------------------------------------------------- "The Phase" The term is beyond, not bounded into existential crisis, quarter life crisis or another crisis you named it. The term is beyond, not bounded into a dogma and versa or any rituals you practiced in daily basis. A spiritual journey is experience any human should be grateful. It might not delightful but yet not terrible either It's not a curse. It's not a sin. It comes from within as human. Who are gifted a heart, brain and ability to think You once sad for why you have such a complex mind You once sad for why you keep questioning and weak in believing All you do becomes trivial Just ended up into frivolous rituals. You feel like a vaguely rebellious coward. Its like pertaining and denying in the same time Bless them who have courage to conquer all the dogma they are raised with. Bless them who have strong faith to believe Him without questioning. Times goes by, Either you are strong believer or strong rebellion wont behold your interest. Then you start seeking for material desire Money, career, achievement anything that world can afford you. You made it, you did it. You have good career, money, you live in prosperity anyone could dreamed of. You even start forget you ever "questing". You thought that your faith is improving. Suddenly you looked up into your surrounding. A psychologist ever said your mind attract same people who have same interest as yours. She was true, you are not alone. The people who you thought are strong believer The people who you thought won't experience "the phase" The people who become your role models They start to express their agitation They are same as you Cause they are seeking Cause they are human At first you got disappointed You questioning, why they changed But deeply, you just lost the persona You never lost them Cause you hinge your path to be similar as theirs While spiritual journey never works that way. It has to be between you and Him. Dear friends, You are not alone. You are in "the phase". We are in "the phase". Dear God, Protect us. Keep us in your faith Guide us in your path
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